To any families that have turned on family members. Don’t wait until they are gone to make things right; then it’s too late. I try to not depend on my family; only to help if I can. When grandchildren or great grandchildren, can’t see me or even talk to me it really takes me down fast. It’s always the ones I have helped the most. I love all my children, grandchildren and great grandchildren equal. It’s just some has what they need. Some don’t, it’s the ones that’s small children, I worry about. Then a small child tells me “Gramma, thank you for loving me.” It lifts me up and brings me down at the same time. I’m happy because they know I love them and they need me by the comment they love me so much.
I feel like I’m at the end of the road. Then I can’t even see them, only by accident if I see them. I can see the look on their face and the hurt in their eyes. They can’t even speak to me. I pray and I cry, I can’t even sleep. Please anyone who reads this, don’t do it to the little ones – it hurts them most. Don’t do this to yourself. When I am gone, you will think of me. I hope you don’t hurt like I do, and believe me all I ask that was that I be allowed to spend time with them. I am not mad at you and I still love you. I’m sorry I’m not perfect but I’m not all bad. I have tried to help you and be good to you.
The love of a Gramma